Things That I Have Learned

1. Everything happens for a reason, even though we might see or understand the reason at first.
2. There is no such thing as luck.
3. A charming smile with charming words often hides an ugly truth.
4. Everyday should begin with a smile.
5. To every action we perform, there is a consequence which can be good or bad.
6. Always keep two hands on the wheel.
7. Don't judge people only by what you have heard about them.
8. Always look before you leap.
9. Sometimes family and real friends are really all you need in life.
10. The past cannot change, so therefore do not regret the past. The past has gotten you to your present and will get you through your future.
11. At first sight, anything is impossible. It's when you look further within that you realize that everything is possible.
12. No matter how much we wish to stay in one spot and mope about our miseries, we must continue to move on.
13. Life is about taking risks. If it wasn't, then 'risk' wouldn't be in our vocabulary.
14. Live the life you want to live.
15. Regret nothing. If it was good, it's a cherished memory. If it was bad, it's an experience.
16. Big dreams don't just happen. It doesn't matter how big you dream, because if it's not meant to happen or to be, then it won't come true. Sometimes, we wish for the biggest things in life, but in truth, the biggest things in life are staring at us. We just have to find out what those things are.  In fact, sometimes the biggest things turn out to be small, and the smallest things turn out to be the biggest of them all.
17. Learn to forgive, but never forget.
18. Never expect anything, because things will always change.

Heartbroken Heartbreaker

7 March 2011

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My brain is fighting with my heart.

Guess which is winning?

Hint:  <3

I'm a heartbroken heartbreaker. 

Barely living life day by day.

I want this to be over.

But I love you.

I hate loving you.

Just go disappear.

It'll make things okay.

Probably.

Do you do it on purpose?

People say you care. 

It's hard to believe when you're dong..

that.

I wish things were fixed.

Because… 

I miss you.

People don't understand why I do. 

But I understand.

It's because we loved each other. 

We had our own connection.

To kids in love, that's what it is. 

And one thing… One thing can ruin it all.

I'm scared. 

The odds of me getting you back are.. zero. 

I cannot do this.

I'm sorry...

As I'm sitting here not sleeping

there is only one thing on my mind.

And it's you. 

I can't breathe.

My heart stops when you look at me.

I can't eat.

Sleep.

Concentrate.

People say that you want what you can't have…

I understand that now.

I want you.

You don't want me.

You are playing games with me.

Saying things, KNOWING they make me happy

and then saying you meant it a different way

Why are you doing this?

You know I love you.

I can't live happily without you.

Every breath I take without you hurts.

I am not okay. 

Everyone thinks I am now.

It's a lie.

I still love you.

I still want you.

I'm trying to love life.

Ama la vida. Odio el amor.

I lay in my bed upside down.

Thinking of how things used to be.

You loved me.

We both made mistakes.

But mine ended it all.

6 months later, I am still not okay.

But I am handling it.

I don't let you see how I feel.

I blocked you out.

You're in love with a new girl.

And..

I'm still in love with the boy that broke me.