Heartbroken Heartbreaker

7 March 2011

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My brain is fighting with my heart.

Guess which is winning?

Hint:  <3

I'm a heartbroken heartbreaker. 

Barely living life day by day.

I want this to be over.

But I love you.

I hate loving you.

Just go disappear.

It'll make things okay.

Probably.

Do you do it on purpose?

People say you care. 

It's hard to believe when you're dong..

that.

I wish things were fixed.

Because… 

I miss you.

People don't understand why I do. 

But I understand.

It's because we loved each other. 

We had our own connection.

To kids in love, that's what it is. 

And one thing… One thing can ruin it all.

I'm scared. 

The odds of me getting you back are.. zero. 

I cannot do this.

I'm sorry...

As I'm sitting here not sleeping

there is only one thing on my mind.

And it's you. 

I can't breathe.

My heart stops when you look at me.

I can't eat.

Sleep.

Concentrate.

People say that you want what you can't have…

I understand that now.

I want you.

You don't want me.

You are playing games with me.

Saying things, KNOWING they make me happy

and then saying you meant it a different way

Why are you doing this?

You know I love you.

I can't live happily without you.

Every breath I take without you hurts.

I am not okay. 

Everyone thinks I am now.

It's a lie.

I still love you.

I still want you.

I'm trying to love life.

Ama la vida. Odio el amor.

I lay in my bed upside down.

Thinking of how things used to be.

You loved me.

We both made mistakes.

But mine ended it all.

6 months later, I am still not okay.

But I am handling it.

I don't let you see how I feel.

I blocked you out.

You're in love with a new girl.

And..

I'm still in love with the boy that broke me.